I've Been Keeping A Secret from You

So, I've been keeping a pretty big secret from you for most of the week.

I know, I know...how could I keep this from you? Why did I not let everybody know? Well, a couple reasons really:

1. Aaron wouldn't let me! No joke! He told me to keep this to myself until we received confirmation from our blood test yesterday. Even though a line is a line is a line and I was clearly pregnant, there is something comforting about having a positive beta test, so I agreed with him.
2. I wanted to tell people in real life before posting anything on my blog (because I have a lot of people in real life read my blog), but I didn't want to tell everybody until beta confirmation.

So, you see, I wasn't trying to be deceiving, and it really was so hard (you have no idea!) keeping this from you all. I was almost not going to write any posts at all, but I figured you all would want to hear from me, so I tried my hardest to write posts that didn't lie to you about me knowing I'm pregnant, but still didn't let you know I'm pregnant. LOL! Make sense?

Because I didn't blog about it, here's what happened.

On my way home from work Tuesday afternoon (5dp6dt), I picked up some Walgreens home pregnancy tests. I was feeling down, really thinking it didn't work (because of the cramping), and I just wanted to put myself out of my misery to see if there was a chance that a line would show up.

Sure enough, there was a super duper faint blue line. I was cautiously excited because I've heard of evaporation lines looking like faint lines (but this wouldn't have been an evaporation line because it showed up within the first couple minutes). However, I had never seen the slightest resemblance of a line the entire time I was trying to conceive, so I was also very optimistic.

I called Aaron to have him pick up a pack First Response pregnancy tests. I told him that I think I might be pregnant. I'm sure that was the longest 40-minute drive home he's ever had. (Sorry, honey!).

So, the second he came home, using mid-afternoon urine (that I held for maybe 3 hours, so it wasn't too diluted), I peed on a stick, and sure enough...this is what we saw. It is very faint, but definitely there. You see it?

This was one of the happiest moments of my life seeing that true line. That unmistakable second line revealing to me what I longed to know for so long. That I was indeed, finally pregnant! Aaron was way cautious, though, and totally brought down the mood. Even though he knew I was right, like I said, he wanted beta conformation.

Side note: When I got pregnant with Ella, the second line was very faint as well, but I knew that a line is a line is a line so I was crying in hysteric happiness and he was like, "Lets wait to see the doctor." He sure knows how to kill a girl's thunder. I know and understand his reasoning, but still, give a pregnant girl a little slack here, especially this time around since we've gone through so much and wanted it so bad!

This is what the line looked like Wednesday morning (6dp6dt) using first morning urine. The line is maybe a little darker than the first test, but barely 12 hours had between passed, so my hCG level didn't increase that much.

Thursday morning (7dp6dt) the line was much darker and at this point, it's really starting to settle in that I'm pregnant. Aaron is finally starting to accept that this is real. :)

Friday (8dp6dt) morning's line was darker yet. Almost the same consistency as the control line. Aaron knows now. Watching the lines grow darker each day helped him come around. :)

This was the test taken the morning of our beta blood test. The lines are the same in darkness. :)

It's been a wonderful week. A very, very wonderful week. :)